Tuesday, April 13, 2010

crap begets crap

I am so completely in a lazy, McLazy, LAZY status right now I can barely stand myself. I have not run since last Tuesday under the guise that my plantar fasciitis has flared up again and I don't want to be too injured to walk during Relay this Friday. (I call bullshit on myself here, by the way.)

We had friends visiting last Wednesday, Thursday and Friday and all three meant I drank and ate too much, which resulted in my complete vegetative status on Saturday that consisted of House and Criminal Minds, playing Zoo World incessantly all while eating Chinese food and pizza. I have done the work I have to do to stay above water, but then I am spending the rest of my time watching television or just looking out the window. I have polished off the Easter candy, and perhaps the most telling sign...since my journey began the beginning of 2009 I didn't weigh in this morning. What the hell ?

But this afternoon, I was thinking about why I am freaking out and completely reverting, and I think I know what has triggered this latest sabotage that kind of started about 6 months ago. I am not quite ready to talk about it, not until I get my head straight about it anyhow. Bear with. However, since I think I know what my problem is, even though I don't really know how to deal with it quite yet, I have told myself, assured myself, promised, begged, cajoled and pleaded with myself to at the very least get my run on tomorrow. I guess we shall see.

ETA: After some effort dragging myself out of bed this morning, and reading the comments that were very supportive and maybe a bit naggy, I did get out there and managed to pound out 4.28 miles. If I didn't have a meeting in 45 minutes I think I would have just kept going and going while I debate myself about what is going in in my brains. Now to see if I can get the food to follow suit.


Shelley said...

OK, I'll bear with you. As I sit here trying to force myself to go for a run, solo - my partner bailed on me (again). Go run! I'll run. Check in with you later to compare runs, ok?

Amy said...

Waiting.... ;-)
I'm having a hard time in the running motivation as well. Ugh. It's hard!

tara said...

I too am trying to come off of a very lazy, sit around and eat cake, sort of week. It's all about taking one step at a time, and taking it easy on yourself. I hope whatever is wrong is quickly made right. ;)

Kate said...

I'm horrible sick, so I haven't been able to go to the gym and I'm convinced that means I'll never go back again.

Anonymous said...

I have a guess, but I will bear with.

You know, blowing off workouts and eating crap and watching TV can be very satisfying. I just did it for weeks while I was sick, and I enjoyed the experience while I had it. I mean, that's why we do it.

But I am much more back on track now with eating right and going to the gym, and that is very satisfying and stress-reducing in a different way. I was just thinking this morning how much better my body feels from a long work-out last night.

If you are feeling crappy about stuff and reverting to being lazy and not running, remember that you have a whole new set of skills for dealing with what life throws at you, and the first move is getting in your run.

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks said...

If it makes you feel better, I also haven't run since last Tuesday. And I haven't gotten in a long run in over 3 weeks!

I'll just say that taking a break (whether health related or out of pure laziness) is sometimes good. So long as we don't let the doing nothing become our new routine.

I'm going to try to run at lunch today, despite still feeling a bit sick. Maybe we'll both get back on track as of today!!

Shelley said...

I'm back...and I ran. It wasn't my best, but I got in 3.2 miles. Not trying to guilt trip you or anything (oh wait, I am LOL) - did you run?

LiLu said...

Blah. I've been so bad this week too... but I think you just inspired me. I'll get back to it tonight, by hook or by crook!

Lucy said...

Oh, my gosh I hate it when I get in a bad rut and I have to just push myself right out of it or I sink and sink bad. I try to remember that I always feel better when I get up and moving, I don't mind a veg day here and there, I mean I actually NEED my VEG days but if I have too many in a row then it is a rut and I know to get back into my routine. I hope your rut is ended, I hate ruts!!!

Anonymous said...

I feel ya, sister—exercise ruts are a slippery slope.

But give yourself a pat on the back for figuring out whatever is bothering you—most people don’t stop to do that.

Can I pass along some helpful advice someone once gave me? I was in a bad rut and a mentor told me, “just promise yourself you will exercise for 20 minutes and only 20 minutes.” So, since it was only 20 min, I did go to the gym that day. And the next day. And then the next day I wanted to do 30 min, and so on. I was always of the mindset that I needed to go for 2.5 hours, and that’s a big hurdle when you’re in a rut.

And if it makes you feel any better, I knew I was going to like you when I read the first paragraph of this post. Funny! And then I saw the tag at the end and thought: LOVE. Am in love. :) Names created from adjectives are one of my favorite-things-in-life.

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