Monday, February 1, 2010

let the irritating tone commence....




I am going off the air for February. Blogging isn't working for me right now. I am having a hard time with lots of things that I don't really think are mine to blog about, at least until I get stuff straight in my head and I get some clarity and closure on other stuff. The pressure of NOT being able to blog about what I am going through at the moment is bothering me a surprising amount to the point that thinking about blogging makes my guts twist up.

There are other things too: I am not managing my relationships the way I know I can. I am not eating right. I am not running. I am not going to the gym. I am going through the motions to get through my classes, but I am not progressing on research or any of my other responsibilities in that arena. My house is a disaster both from a clean/dirty and organization/CLUTTERFUCK standpoints.

It isn't that I am (not) doing these things BECAUSE of blogging, I just feel like I want a quick fix on control and choosing to step away from blogging is how I choose to do that.

While I am gone I hope to have lost some weight, gotten back on the 1/2 training program, and gotten my house in 'company' shape. We will have signed a new lease. I will go over 100 miles on the brand new car I bought last Friday. (A YELLOW Chevy Cobalt)*. I will have participated in a faculty meeting that divides our faculty, and I will have had to choose a side. I will have had a mammogram, celebrated Mr. P's birthday, run in 4 races (one 10K, three 5K's), finished all the reviews I have piled on my desk, submitted a proposal for a grant, and hopefully, will have a letter from the University Prez stating I have tenure.

Catch you on the flip side of February, hopefully a less melodramatic flake!

*(That purchase, while I love the car, is an example of how I am kind of not myself lately and I need to re-center, to be all hippy dippy about it.)

23 comments:

Tammie said...

everyone needs a blog break once in a while. we'll be here waiting once you get back.

creative kerfuffle said...

omg. please come back after february! please. i'm sorry things are the way they are right now and i hope you get everything worked out. please don't stop blogging for good though ok???

Shelly Overlook said...

Kick February's ass!

Shelley said...

As long as you don't forget to come back...

And if you need to get anything off your chest, you have my email.

Not Your Aunt B said...

We'll miss you HP! We'll be here, best of luck juggling it all, and have fun on the runs/birthdays/driving the car/tenure. Sometimes I feel like I need to pause my life for a second so I can catch up too!

chezjulie said...

I will miss you. You always make me laugh! But it sounds like you are making a good decision to unplug for a while. I've done that before, too, so I understand. Sometimes real life demands a lot of attention, and the time you spend in virtual life can distract from it or compromise it. Big hugs! Happy Valentine's Day!

lastchanceivf said...

We'll miss you and your support of course but hope you get the clarity you need with a break from the blogworld. See you later!

Jen L. said...

You certainly deserve a sanity break! Take care of yourself. I'll miss you. Catch ya in March!

Marmite Breath said...

Just don't be like me and take a small blog break and then a year later realize that you are still on break and probably have no readers left. Because I really enjoy reading you!

--V said...

Good luck, godspeed, and don't worry how much time you need to take. I'll still be here. You're on my RSS feed, whenever you publish, I'll know and will be reading it.

kilax said...

Congrats on the new car!

I think it is great to take time off to re-center yourself and catch up. Can't wait to hear from you again!

Amy said...

All the best to you! We'll miss you and be waiting to hear your great update in March!

Lucy said...

Hope February brings you what you need!!!!

Good Luck!!!

SoMi's Nilsa said...

There's nothing wrong with taking a step back to refocus. In fact, we all need it from time to time). Sounds like February is very busy for you anyway. Hope you achieve what you can and that you come out on the other side in a better place.

Fatinah said...

boy oh boy am I going to miss you.

take care!!

Alice said...

hugs, hon. take the time you need, and go kick february's ass! i'll be looking forward to march 1st :-)

Penny said...

But I need stuff to do at work and now there is one less blog to read. WAHHHHHHHHHHH

wafelenbak said...

Good luck, Potch! Both reading and blogging have been tough for me (for different reasons) so I hear ya. Take your time for YOU!

Jenn said...

Oh, HP - I'll miss you! Come back soon, please?!

Astarte said...

Hey - I've been thinking about you all month. Just wanted to post and say that I hope whatever it is you're going through is getting under control, and I totally support you. :)

chezjulie said...

Sniff. I miss Hotch. But I am glad she is taking care of the things she needs to in RL.

Tammie said...

hey there. ive been missing you so i thought id popover and say hey and wish you well. :)

Shelley said...

OK Lady, it's been a month. Not that I've been counting down the days or anything...

COME BACK!!! I MISS YOU!!!

 
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